Be My Heaven Series part 1

2018

This series is about my love for Tom Hiddleson

in hope that he will notice.

Deepest eyes that can swallow a girl’s soul he can become my sanctuary , oh look at what he’s done to me, Jesus gave him those eyes, he makes fear seem less dangerous with hard hands to hold and a promise to take care of the homeless and meek. Please tell me I’m not dreaming again… Thomas tell me again and become my heaven, my calming sea my deepest sweetest dream Be my all. Only a crush only a strange desire let me in so that I may bite the fruit upon his lips.Be my heaven please take my fear of falling away, so that I will fly only into your arms and agree with cherubs that your are purely mine before God and priest below. With a voice that ruins all ideas of selfish guilt he is so sweet.

So please take me; to where you are where ever you are is my heaven my future home.

-To my dearest lover…

 

by,Lakira Mitchum

 

“Quotes of the day “

“A girl got kicked out of the swimming hole today. Inge Hachmann. They said they wouldn’t let us swim with a half-breed. Unsanitary. A half-breed, Werner. Aren’t we half-breeds too? Aren’t we half our mother, half our father?”
― Anthony Doerr, All the Light We Cannot See

 

“Where they burn books, at the end they also burn people”
― Heinrich Heine

 

“Then I looked out onto the horizon myself and realized that loss is the same wherever you go: overwhelming, inexorable, deafening. How resilient human beings are that we can learn slowly to carry on when we are left all alone, left to fill the void as best we can. Or disappear into it.”
― Jennifer Ryan, The Chilbury Ladies’ Choir   

“‎I was cursed with the pessimism of both the Russians and the Jews two of the gloomiest tribes in the world. Still if there wasn’t greatness in me maybe I had the talent to recognize it in others even in the most irritating others.”
― David Benioff, City of Thieves   

The Estaic Gamer:Jackseptic Eye

 

By,Lakira Mitchum

With eyes as blue as the sea he manages to make me smile…He reacts to the slightest moment of calmness during a Game ,He’s hilarious and full of glee, although I never met him he has inspired to be the best; I best I could be .Good ol ‘jack always make the smiles take place. The first  time I discovered him I believe he was a little guy with brown hair and a paper boy hat that, seemed a little meek and insecure.His spirit is very pure I can tell,he’s grown on us, I was always kind of unsure about obsessing over bloggers and internet celebrities along with being single and young it’s hard to say I’m okay with admiring him but really I just do, I love this person simply because he gives others a reason to love life just by being positive and seeing beauty in humble places, like a pix elated  game or a snack or, just waking up every day and saying hello!I wanted him to know that His friends and family are fortunate to know him, and have him in their lives I’m glad to say he made me realize  that it is so important to aim at  love what you love  or what you are passionate about you should always aim for it and have no shame in it weather its is in video games, or music or writing or traveling, or just being helpful we should all thrive for this simple feeling of contentment. I don’t  know if I’ll ever reach this complete successful pool of contentment in writing  but , I hope to God I’ll figure it out.So back to Jack, so one of things I wanted to bring up is how charismatic he is,I always felt immature when I’m this way, he is a little bit like me and maybe he misjudges himself, just like me but , he’s such a beautiful individual he has such a giant grasp of empathy for others ,I think he should always try to be sure of himself.I’m really happy for him in his success, and I hope that he continues to follow his dreams and be the (greatest jack ever) or in others I hope he continues his pursuit of happiness.

If he’s reading this

Thank you for being so wonderful Sean, and keep smiling crying ,laughing and just being human and don’t ever give up on your dreams you’re are wonderful. ❤

Love you’re fan,

Lakira Sharice

Growing into woman hood

J’ suis la femme

Part 1

“Anything may happen when womanhood has ceased to be a protected occupation.”
― Virginia Woolf, A Room of One’s Own

By Lakira Mitchum

What does it mean to be a woman?

To have a womb,and be a man? To have breast and a vagina? being a woman is more than just my genital identity its chemistry. A spiritual destiny some how choose me to be a well…a girl.What did my parents think when I came out my mother womb? “Oh wow their she is our baby girl screaming, “hello world I’m here to stay”  I wonder to myself everyday, in this male dominant world full of stereotypes and mass judgement what does my woman hood mean to me.So far being a woman has made me feel vulnerable yet, brave. It’s so fascinating to see our opinions be judged by the opposite sex  in such a way that it can  easily seem problematic dumb or unnecessary but, on the other hand, their is  a wonderful feeling to being a girl, I don’t  believe I’m a woman yet and I’m 22, I have so many things about me I’m not proud of.What makes me a woman is apart of growing up, its something the world cannot give me or take away from me.The brightest feeling of being a girl is for some reason being underestimated,and proving others wrong which is sad.I keep thinking sense I’ve been alive my gender has been judged as useless based on my beauty for quite some time.I’m not sad in my gender ;I’m just what you,  call uhh learning, about my mind, body and spirit and so far this believe that I have is that their a Goddess has helped me develop this idea that women were meant to create and nature this universe of chaos and order. No one can imitate this fact that womanhood is in my mind my ability to think, love and be different from mankind, and accepting that can be hard sometimes but totally worth it when we reach this point of self discovery.

Maybe I’m just perfect the way I am.

“A woman’s happiness is in throwing everything away to live for love.”
― Ai Yazawa, Paradise Kiss, Vol. 5

“If you are embarrassed about your sex, it must mean that you feel there is something demeaning or disgusting about being female. You are all wondrously made, girls. Remember that: wondrously made, and you should carry your sex proudly, a badge of honor.”

― Phyllis Reynolds Naylor, All But Alice

 

Dear ,Martin

Dear,Martin Luther King

We capture the strangest moments in our most saddest times we some how see the small glimpse of heaven in the darkest moments of the universe.We want to become connected to something new, something we knew about before we were born.Here we are waiting for this dream of yours, we are almost their.They say that home is where your heart is, but really you heart was always in heaven and here you are away from earth back home again. Its takes an dreamer and a God to make a dream come true, a legend  to be told.You are the man that reminded man that they should be homesick enough to love one another with no intention of  separating us from this God, this universal hold.We all collected the same dust the day we were created,we all cried for the same milk of mother earth, We all swim in the same oxygenated waters and sing the tune the moon sung the day Jesus was born.We all share the same dream Mr.Martin and If I could show you, I would have to open the eyes of all men so they may see heaven, and Earth stands in the big beautiful hands of the God and Goddess that managed to speak our names before time began.We were created by love and we were created to be loved.So be strong Martin look down with pride Love is just growing in this culture like wildfire.

Sincerely,

Lakira Sharice 

“There is nothing more dreadful than the habit of doubt. Doubt separates people. It is a poison that disintegrates friendships and breaks up pleasant relations. It is a thorn that irritates and hurts; it is a sword that kills.”
― Gautama Buddha

My fascination with Gerald.G(G-Eazy)

 

 

By,Lakira Mitchum

Musical influence

The wonderful thoughts going through my mind of other people, I can be captivated by many things but, I can become too impressed with other peoples lives.I can honestly say I am persistent in hoping for all things good for man kind,my specific opinion on this man has been a tiny speculation in my mind (Gerald Gillum) “how crazy it is we forget how much music affects us everyday”.My only desire is that music will take a lift and will eventually evolve into something more like story telling again instead of twerk music.I love music, I love hip-hop but not all hip hop can always lift my soul.I believe G-Eazy is a intelligent individual  but, I think he can be capable of aiming at an audience that is more broader,as In those that are soul searching, or just looking for a lullaby of peace. Something in my mind makes me believe he can be more peaceful than he seems.he has a painful story to tell, he seems broken of course but although in some way content.I want to know his journey in his lyrics, and he seems to be pretty unique for an Caucasian hip hop artist although he seems; he lacks popularity in the black community , their are other white rappers like Macklemore and, Enimem but, I love him  particularly because he chose a style in another time period and stuck with it for so far in his career . I hope he does not change too much but, just enough to say he has learned a lot in life while on his travels and as he gets older.He’s a modern greaser, or a old school,new school punk which I find to be exotic and new  to bring in hip hop, he’s sexy yet smooth idea of simplicity is exactly what brings me to notice him as a artist.I for a fact know Gerald is an trend setter and maybe as the we all  youth don’t really appreciate it but,he is rubbing off on me. Maybe I’m a bit of an optimists about music what I want to hear and see from talented musicians can only happen if you criticize them by word of mouth.

Overall my own interest in music usually has something to with my desire that musicians will realize if they talk about social issues; controversy that they could change the very way we think in the world music has such a powerful image on what we call our pursuit for an common intellect. we all want to be understood, we all want to be heard, But I think Gerald should rap more about his mother, his brother, his hometown, his life as a man from California.The things he has seen in life that he thinks is wrong, or good about life,he dresses like he from the sixties but does not rap like he is from the sixties as much as I wish he could,he is an romanticist I know, and maybe his peers don’t expect him to  pursue becoming  a opinionated lyricists due to his choice of genre, age of audience and sexual content in his music,but I think he is fully capable of it,I want give him a bit of a “umph” a  critical push
for now let’s just see how things go.

What Gerald’s Eyes told me (G-easy)

My Fascination with Tom Hiddleston

“Peace begins with a smile..”
― Mother Teresa

“Don’t Gain The World & Lose Your Soul, Wisdom Is Better Than Silver Or Gold.”
― Bob Marley

“When I say it’s you I like, I’m talking about that part of you that knows that life is far more than anything you can ever see or hear or touch. That deep part of you that allows you to stand for those things without which humankind cannot survive. Love that conquers hate, peace that rises triumphant over war, and justice that proves more powerful than greed.”
― Fred Rogers

The first impression

My fascination with Tom Hiddleston

part one:

By,Lakira Mitchum

It’s funny to say,I hate being a fan girl, a screaming squealing teenage girl with an odd infatuation. I’m 22 years old and single so give me a break, I am my own critic, so I decided to  write about this individual myself.  Mr.Thomas Hiddleston;it’s hard to believe he is isn’t married with children yet, and all these years he seems to have had this awesome journey of self discovery.I sometimes wonder if  he’s still asking himself “what to do? “what to do”?  His acting career has been as long as RDJ,or Johnny Depp but he has a strange charm on me although I’ve never met the guy.Its not just his acting or good looks , I did not care much for Loki or, Sir.Thomas Sharp I really do love his eyes but,more than anything I love his concern for humanity.I think He is someone to admire he puts his wealth to good use, and the entertainment industry employees can do wonders for the world’s social  issues as well the economic flow of the world market ,I believe the youth of the world should admire his actions. The wealthy as well as the middle class should follow his example and be supportive of what he does. The more he donates to UNICEF the better the world can become.Tom William Hiddleston is just a small bulb on the tree of life. Those communities should also have to be willing to help themselves.He is a man of power, and as a bachelor I often wonder if he has a hard time contemplating what to do with his wealth.Maybe he could become a CEO over an corporation focuses on helping the world’s health concerns and illness studies as well  or just continue with his own legacy of ending world hunger.I have no clue how long he plans on acting I hope to find out one day either way it goes,all of these thoughts I have I really could care less about his current love life but, really I want to see him happy maybe one day married to a nurse,or maybe a woman that is not famous celebrity woman,and I say this because, I think it would distract him from UNICEF, and from being a humanitarian.

My personal opinion of this man, really; honestly  I want to see him retire as an Doctor, a traveling Doctor; or a nurse employer. He has the potential to achieve almost anything as a woman that admires him deeply I would support him morally in my heart. Other than his career I want to  say, He is a charming idiosyncratic smiling American-British actor that is  extremely wonderful and tastefully  pulchritudinous in my eyes. Their is a small part of him I think that is actually mischievous.So maybe years from now I may not be so intrigued by him but, I will never forget him,or his films but, I believe the conversations we would have if I met him would consist of medical exams, humanitarian concerns and world issues. He has millions of fans and many awards but, in reality what he does for others is what matters the most to me, he brings hope to humanity, he just maybe homesick for heaven who knows.All in all really I can say I love Tom Hiddleson simply because he is an human that loves humans. 

 

 

 

Heaven is right here,Maria.

Short story telling

By,Lakira Mitchum

Blood, all over her scrubs, here we go, oh God I don’t speak English, no habla englas shit she thinks to herself; death is right on his shoulder breathing sickening over his aching soul to about release itself into Hades.”The innocent does not always die young,” an angel whispers to him.It’s been a crazy night in the E.R,Everything has been in turmoil all evening,the nurses are all well experienced people with families and, good health but, low sanity.She was scared but, her patient wasn’t he was a veteran that never lost his virginity because he grew up in a cult, he was in his fifties and at this point and Jesus was a loyal companion.He was Jewish and she was Hispanic and at the moment she was his only friend they only knew each other for two hours.Peep, peep, here it is, in his last moments and the doctor was too drunk to even ask him his name, it was Theodore his eyes were a bleak  shy blue and  his hair was a strange silver-ish gray it glowed almost like a halo.”Nurse Maria just let him go, he’s just some son of a bitch from Alabama let him die we’ll call it at midnight.” the doctor mumbles to her clutching his clip board.He had no family left , no friends, no pets it was just him, and his neighbor who rushed him to the hospital, out of pity.”No, I cant just loose hope ,I can’t do this,I can’t let him die, this is a Godly man I can feel it she replied with a brash thick Cuban accent, with a small cry. She managed to cover his wound it seemed he was stabbed ‘   she began to give him stitches he was still breathing, he began to smile at Maria, you are so beautiful miss , I feel as if I am already in heaven,thank you for being so kind.That was the nicest thing anyone had ever said, to her she was raped by her step father, and never had a good family ties,Maria was only 25 years old.she only wanted to love that man back to life.Three hours latter Theodore was asleep peacefully in his bed.Maria sat in that room and watched him sleep her back was so sore she could just collapse from exhaustion in a chair Oh, thank Mary he’s alive,she thought to herself.A year latter she was in a coffee shop,Theodore was holding her hand she was married to him, they fell in love, that moment when she saved his life that was all it took  to save her own life as well.He was the greatest thing that happened  to her.

It’s funny how love works how only two hours in the hospital can make up for a thousand years of pain, and how one sentence can make up a thousand insults.Love captivates you in the smallest ways.

Relatives can be Relative to nothing

“All parents damage their children. It cannot be helped. Youth, like pristine glass, absorbs the prints of its handlers. Some parents smudge, others crack, a few shatter childhoods completely into jagged little pieces, beyond repair.”
― Mitch Albom, The Five People You Meet in Heaven

“When everything goes to hell, the people who stand by you without flinching — they are your family. ”
― Jim Butcher

by,Lakira Mitchum

We tend to ask for no favors anymore, a whipping by the kitchen counter was all it took to swindle the kinder gardener to do the dishes and sweep the floor.Your cousin is a thug and your uncle is in prison he’s good at asking for money and gambling is a promising career for him so far.Relatives are not always relevant, but some will always be hopeful and praying.Weakness is the moping benefit of family keeping faith, reunions and birthdays holidays and hustle days what’s the difference.We combat guilt we follow mercy, we speak with compassion but I find more family in strangers like most people do and all. Family can come in only a minute compared to what was their in my DNA for decades and decades.Even Jesus knew relatives are not always relevant to every moment to laughter and of cries. Family can become anyone or anything, home can be found anywhere or in anyone and for some a cigarette is the only family they may seek every day. Love is famous but she doesn’t always hand out autographs that just means you have to love yourself. Take  the garbage out, wash the dishes, they forget my birthday and leave for church retreats on the very day I was born, but family and blood ties and don’t always tie tight. Some say we only live once but I died when she said, she didn’t care anymore. Family has many meanings, family has many ties, my obedience and is what makes me relevant to her, so pay attention, to her family was fear, to them being black was undefined as long as I only had a black culture I knew, being a nigga, a nigger with no job was all I had all we called each-other a nigga with no friends no God no hope, but a screaming pastor that chocked on the biblical word of God. Relatives are relevant to the hopeless, and misunderstood, if they are blessed with the kindness of kin.Be no fool, trust only Homesick Orphans because relatives are not always relevant to compassion.

 

The eyes of God part 2 oh,Gerald

Love for strangers

By,Lakira Mitchum

He was never someone I admire from his music or fame, it’s a weird fascination I Understand we all seek friendship and we all seek God or a Goddess, we all desire for some soul to look at us, and somehow know exactly what we need.I can tell he ‘s a lover of the light,I can tell he forgot what family meant in some way.He’s been broken, and  only hope can fix him.The pleasures he finds now are only temporary, when will he just be free to be himself? I watch him with God’s and the Goddess’s eyes; she watches him with eve’s eyes, he was made to be loved not marveled,kissed not spent up, worn out done with and done for.They don’t recognize a suicidal man because he wore a mask in all of his videos. He is love, we are loved, he just needs to be enlightened.Every breath he takes is a blessing to someone more than his mother, it’s a wonder to me for some reason. You are loved. He is loved